The following is a "life reading" I had with Hilarion. I am very grateful for Hilarion's assistance over the years. You can ask Hilarion any question you want. Nothing is off limits.
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Lori: Can you please tell me the names of my spirit guides?
Hilarion: You have five within your guidance group. They each have different talents and capabilities. One, you have known, as the female Archangel of Hope, Derdeka in the past. And she has important capacities to engage various opportunities for you to release belief patterns, to find new ones. To create energies in ways that were not easily available to you before as a result.
It is a difficult matter sometimes as the expression goes to "get out of your own way." But, this eventually provides a true understanding of hope. As a result, the bridge between you and this guide will often come from the sense of awareness of hope in your chest; a sense of opening or a capacity of warmth, an expansion sort of energy. Some of this connection may be felt more strongly at the nape of the neck and there can be an awareness at times of a Violet light helping along this process.
Another guide you have known as Kareena and Kareena's capacity is to in any way possible to help you find humor, play, and enjoyment.
Rama is another guide and his capacity to assist you is with discovering deeper levels of your own sense of power; your ability to assert various opportunities you have in the world and in creating expressive ideas outwardly for others to understand. But these will always be aligned with Athena's energy of this towards the purpose of discovering ultimate truth.
There are twins who work with you regularly. They have had many names for you. But the names symbolizing the Hopi, for sun and moon that is Dawa and Nyma, respectively. In understanding these, they are to give you the sense that you have within you always dualistic opportunities to connect. You can learn this side of something but you can learn the other side too; to blend these aspects in yourself, to connect them in some way. To find some energy of these that can be balanced or somehow brought to the next higher level. This is what can be coordinated amongst all of these guides to find a sense of a higher reality.
Struggling with the law of opposite expression has been of important concern to you in past lives. You have largely come to some awareness or peace with this. But it keeps popping up. As you study it you may find certain levels of inspiration because it is a connecting point between you and the twins. Their ability to help you understand different aspects of the world, from this point of view may eventually give rise to a deeper understanding of the entire creative process.
Creativity has been a very important part of your life. Each of these guides has different areas to contribute in this arena. You may find additional benefit and at the same time an attunement to the entire creative process that the guides help with.
The ability of the guides to bring through creative spark, different energies, etc. is very important. Always a way in which an energy of a positive, helpful nature, combines with that which is purely fun, entertainment and expressed for the sake of others; bringing the opportunity for deeper awareness naturally.
Sometimes this isn't your own awareness. That is the purpose of this creativity, this expression, is to inspire others to discover their deeper awareness. And it is this which you have in common with all of these guides: a strong sense that other people awakening is important and that this will be valuable.
Path of assistance is a powerful truth path, one that will repeatedly give you deeper understanding of your own ability to help others and your capacity to improve the world. This therefore will also be what you share in common by whatever means, not just creativity with these other guides.
Before you came into this life, in the inter-missive period, you mapped out several potential life paths for yourself. One of these was the awakening of deeper levels, intuition, unconscious understanding and ultimately uncovering what you came for here, all of these paths leading towards the same ultimate result, that of discovering of truth. Clear truth. Pure truth.
In point of fact your deeper affiliation is not with our energy as much as it is with the consciousness that is aligned with the feminine side of this energy. Her name is Pallas Athena and you have known her in various aspects in the past. But again focus on truth and the awareness of truth energy as she was created at pure light. It is this which remains available to you at many levels and that we are certainly grateful to assist.
Lori: What past lives have I had with Derdeka the Angel of Hope?
It doesn't really work that way she really gets around a lot. In terms of interacting with people in so many different ways but probably one of maximum value was one in which during an incarnation in Atlantis you became involved with a project. It had its own name in Atlantean, it translates fairly well to what you would say today as the “Angel Project,” and this was an attempt to make far deeper contact with beings who guide and assist humanity and in this one was able to create a bridge sort of energy to many different angelic beings.
During this time period, few of those involved recognized there was something more going on than communication that it was about a sort of merging, an energy that was a powerful connection between worlds or vibrations. You recognized this and extended your own energy so that others could work with it in a more direct fashion. Though it's not really like channeling angels it was perhaps that which you would remember as this or have a vision of this because what it actually was is not something that you have experience for in this life.
But this idea that the angelic energy could be present within you, could be available through you, could touch you or work through you to others. This sort of idea of it became the real foundation of "The Angel Project," and that which eventually affected everyone on the planet. This was a deepening of the ability to contact and work with these beings in a way that would be helpful and useful and would also provide for them a sense of what humanity had to bring, a sense of love or companionship or caring for the earth or various other things that could be made available.
In working in these directions different angels at various times would present different ideas, different ways of being, different things that could come through and it was important that you experienced all of these. Each of them had their own ways but as you would come to understand these you would of course be touched differently by each one.
Derdeka gave you a vision of humanity, a sense of what was possible for humanity that filled you with a sense of hope, possibility of potential, of all kinds of beautiful energies. She saw that this could be perhaps a burden to you not because of the uplifting part of it but because when you are trapped in seeing that which is ahead, that which is not present here it can seem as if that would never show up or could somehow be put forward when in fact it is that which is available right now.
So, as such then a deeper contact was necessary. You would see through her eyes that humanity has this capability, this ability to connect somehow to something at a higher level right now, immediately at any time. This was not just about hope, as is the typical association anyone has with Derdeka but it was about something deeper; a way perhaps of seeing your place in all of this.
So at various times since then you have had different opportunities to interact with guides, helpers and so on. But, in this life you have had a connection to humanity as a whole. Understanding aware energies that are personal to you could somehow be expanded, touching others, working with others in different ways. You could not do this unless you had at some level, hope; an understanding of what is possible for humanity in a positive regard. In the opportunity for greater advancement, evolution or some way even just of knowing and enjoying yourself more. So, in this way you see what you are doing, what you are doing in the world by your actions this is what is paving the way for Derdeka’s connection more than anything else.
Most of the connections you have had in the past with this entity have not been those in which there has been such a direct contact. The idea was to have an overshadowing, a benefit to your guides and helpers that would be more direct, benefit to people around you perhaps, an energy needed when things became dark or difficult or hopeless, that sort of thing. But in this life the deeper contact here can be one that can at times be sustaining, helpful, give you strength when it might not otherwise be available.
Lori: I read in your book that a person's sun sign indicates something from a past life. So, why am I am I an Aquarius?
Hilarion: This occurred toward the latter period of an important Atlantean incarnation so far as a number of other individuals were concerned. You had influence over a group, though not the leader of the group, still in a position of some authority. You were referred to in a word that would translate roughly as "Head Mistress." This was a leadership position that charted out two avenues simultaneously; the more spiritual and the more physical. These were to be brought into people's consciousness through movement, through dance, through the voice.
During this time period however, you became confronted with a series of obstacles. These obstacles laid for you the groundwork for many avenues of esoteric study that were to come in subsequent lifetimes. How to interpret various aspects of what society was struggling with. Issues of religion versus science, issues in technology and its appropriate utilization, issues of how people could accept their own higher spirituality, come to terms with their own sense of themselves.
You were in a position of leadership but you weren't actually leading. It was as if a thought form or an energy which was somehow available in your consciousness. It created a pattern, or a way in which people could relate to each other by your words, by your actions, by your movements, by the things that you taught others by various ways, this eventually was received, communicated to them and in filling out this vision, actually becoming a part of it, the people themselves grew. This was somehow satisfying, it enabled you to go on. There were as you are aware towards the end of the Atlantean epic many obstacles, some of physical nature that confronted the people there.
Some of these difficulties relating to discoveries in science and technology were not properly used. You had many ways of bringing questions and understanding to consciousness about this. Bringing new ways of working with these possibilities, but more importantly the sense that together people could do more. Together an establishment of consciousness could be placed.
This is one of the hallmarks of the symbol associated with Aquarius; the very idea that you can lead without leading, that energy could be established that you could launch, welcome, be a part of, but then get out of the way. Let it simply flow in its own way. As a result of this have a great deal of satisfaction, love, enjoyment, hope and have the sense that you had contributed something useful, beautiful, helpful and so on.
At the same time as knowing all of those energies there were some profound influences associated with the star Aldeberon. Here with the bringing together of many important new energies relating to the relationship of the birth of a new society out of some of the visions and ideas of the old society were made available to you. You were not always able to understand these visions or these ideas and you brought this to the attention and understanding of others.
To your dismay some of those things that you brought forth in innocence were misused. Used in ways that could not necessarily have to do with the underlying way in which you brought these initially, the way in which they could be ultimately helpful or beneficial to others. Although this was a message from the stars, it was that which was somehow to be interpreted by human beings. To be felt or known in some positive and helpful way.
The result of this was that some of the energies that you saw as having tremendous potential to birth a new society, was brought to you, through you, and of course to many others, yet ignored by society. Energy and understanding not only denied but in some cases used to cause harm or difficulty to the lives of animals and certain people.
During this time period there was for you the awareness and attunement to other lifetimes. Reincarnation was well known and understood. But, at the same time there were many blocks that were naturally placed when lifetimes had a strong emotional component.
Because the technology was fairly well developed in this phase, the opportunity to experience other lifetimes using entirely technological means was available to you and many other people. This showed you a lifetime, in fact several, in your future, from that time looking forward in time. You began to see some lives, where through superstition, fear, mere ignorance, because awareness of past lives within you was not present, you did not accept this at all.
That in those lifetimes there was as if a "shutting away" or denial of some of the enlightenment, understanding and even the technology that was available to you in Atlantis. This troubled you and you recognized that there would be times where you would eventually need to overcome that. It was not so much a window or vision into this life specifically but into the generalities similar to this and more recent lifetimes where you would consider some of your past life activities.
Lori: Why am I suddenly drawn to the theater? Was I a theater performer in the past?
Hilarion: Oh yes, many times. It has saved your life in some situations. In others it was somewhat dangerous. Bear baiting and theater was quite common in Elizabethian times.
And sometimes the crowds would go over to the bear and leave you alone. Those would sometimes be times that in your anger you would stride over to the bear and as you can imagine various troubles would ensue.
Earlier than this it was often a time in which you could earn food, be taken care of, have a sense of prominence, not theater in the usual sense, but entertainment, storytelling, helping others with their own issues, and so on. As with most of those activities in this life, which have a more profound influence, you can go back to the lifetime you lived in Atlantis to answer this. The essence of theater was understood at the time, a way in which a deeper aspect of expression was allowed to emerge as a powerful creative light. You felt great delight as a little child. You would turn it into stories and use it as inspiration for creative activities. When you grew older you recognized the pure energy would not be enough. The interesting thing about this that in your view, through your Atlantean lives, where you witnessed various aspects of theater, exploration of your creative expression of your connection to other people, you actually in Atlantis, sent energy, the feeling of that powerful light again, somehow to the future. The equipment or technology was not designed to do that. But your own sense of the connectivity, the bridge, the alignment, it is this energy which does indeed allow this to transfer.
This is the higher energy of theater. You have seen it many times when someone is in that beautiful, wonderful place. What the character had was a powerful message, something valuable for others to come through. It is that energy in its purest sense which was worked with in Atlantis.
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